31 December 2011

It's the last day of Year 2011.
Officially just a couple more hours to Year 2012.

Year 2011 has been more than a roller coaster ride for me but I thank God for putting me through it all.

Officially graduating from university.
Finally planned and went on a trip independently with awesome friends for the first time in my life.
Found a job with an awesome boss who loves me.
Found an awesome boyfriend who loves me more than anyone else.
Grew in my walk with God.
Found friends who really stood by me through it all.

What more can I ask for?

Goodbye 2011 and hello 2012, please be nice to me :)

`shall do my new year resolution tomorrow. hahaha

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

终于看了"那些年，我们一起追的女孩"。
不知我已暗示无数次了，我亲爱的男友才决定陪我看。
是有点被逼的吧。嘻。。

很久以前就读过这本书。
当时读的时候，可能就觉得是一般写得不错的爱情小说之类吧。
我以前实在是太过浪漫主义了；整天沉迷于爱情小说。
整天都在发梦，心想何时才能像小说里的女主角一样找到真心爱我的人。
想起来，现在也还是整天发白日梦，还是很浪漫主义嘞！
哈哈。

今天又看了这本书的电影。
似乎感觉跟以前完全不同。
看电影的过程，真令人感触良多。
不但勾起了回忆和不少的感动，也带着点触景伤情的感觉。

可能是已经历了不少的事。
可能是已到了会怀念的年龄。

唉！真的挺怀念以前的青春。
怀念那自由自在，我行我素的青春。
怀念那些无谓的暧昧，暗恋情环。
怀念那些无聊又疯狂的行为。

怀念但不带着遗憾，也不觉得要回到过去。
我庆幸我已经历了那么多，也成长了许多。
我庆幸我现在过得比以前更好。

这个故事并不是写着感伤。
在不同的心境在生命中不同的阶段，看这故事都会有着不同的感触。
我个人的感触是，作者想提醒我们，
我们每个人都有自己刻苦铭心的故事。
我们都度过了那青涩的时光，我们也从经历的种种成长了。
所经历的，凡开心或伤心的，都仅仅属于回忆。
也就因着经历过那么多了，所以学会了更要珍惜现在。
不是吗？

而我，真的很庆幸能够遇见你。：）
也谢谢你真心地爱我。：）

带着淡淡忧郁的星期五夜晚

 不知怎么的，看着雨点一滴一滴地落下，心情也似乎沉了下来。
 是不开心吗？应该没有吧。
 是悲伤吗？好像也不是。
 可能是下着雨的夜晚特别的寂静，才会让人的思绪有机会随意地乱跑。

 困了。去睡了。

thoughts

It's been a long while since I can just laze around and have time to myself.
Work has been really hectic. Staying beyond office hours has already become a norm.
But hopefully, it won't be for long.

Come to think of it, I have already worked for six months or so.
I guess, I can say I have been through quite a lot in these six months.
All the ups and downs.
All the mind games.
All the care and concerns of nice colleagues.
Indeed, being in the working world, one can come across all sorts and kinds of people.
Well, I guess I can only pray that God will strengthen me through it all and help me along the way.
And, I definitely have to thank God for my dear boyfriend who has quietly been there for me always.
and everyday, though work can be very frustrating and upsetting,
at the end of the day, I know that I am always well-loved by my dear boyfriend.

I especially enjoyed myself yesterday.
Shopping-ing with boyfriend. and just chilling out at the music cafe.
Never been so relaxed in a long while.
Just feel like I'm falling in love all over again :)
*loves my boyfriend so so so much ^ ^ *

刚听这首歌曲，就不自觉地想起了你。。。

梁静茹 - 我喜欢

看蓝蓝的天空下

绵绵的白云停在你脸上
爱在巴黎的塞纳河畔上面晀望
赶不上的玻璃船
却不觉得遗憾
早已沉醉在你暖暖的手掌 紧握住我不放
偷偷的闻着你带着孩子气的男人香


呼...我喜欢就这样靠在你胸膛
呼...我喜欢没有时间没有方向
呼...我喜欢像这样爱的好自然
不用管别人投什么眼光 随你带着我四处去游荡


呼...我喜欢一醒来有你在身旁
呼...我喜欢赖在床上看你喝汤
呼...我喜欢你的手放在我肩膀
像是担心我会消失一样 为我每一吋消瘦而感伤


好想就这样 有你在身旁 一直到天长

`亲爱的，谢谢你总是对我那么的细心，那么的呵护。
谢谢你总是默默地守护着我。
谢谢你那么的在乎我，那么的爱我。
从喜欢到爱上，你让我不知不觉地随着每一天更爱你。
谢谢你，亲爱的。:) *winks*

:(

I am missing my boy right now.
Miss bugging him for the entire day.
Miss talking on the phone with him just before I go to bed.
Somehow, I just really miss him a lot.

 我好想你，你知道吗？

04112011

:) This week has been rather spent rather happily for me.
Even though I was feeling pretty unwell till now, I still feel very at ease and at home in my HQ office.
Work has been pretty demanding since I have gotten back.
But thank God that my boss is leaving me to my own pace and I am still coping well :)

and yay to the long weekend.
Am feeling tired and abit unwell still.
Am missing my boy but guess he is either still bathing or busy nuaing :/
so off I go to bed :)
nights.

:)

Happy to be in love with you :)

saturday with boyfriend :)

I love saturdays with boyfriend.
Loves just spending time with him.

It's going to be my last day in my deployment.
Lord, please please please just let me clear this very nicely.
No more hiccups and please let you-know-who be nice.

Feel like going to KTV but boyfriend not in the mood. SOBS.
Maybe I shouldn't be complaining about him since he is being so nice to cook dinner for me.
HEHS.

Life has been pretty awesome. Can't wait to go on leave in fact.
Hopefully, the situation in Bangkok will have some miracles happening.
Or if not, please let there be a possibility that our air tickets would not be forfeited just like that.

Really need a good break from everything and just travel, shop and eat.
pleasepleaseplease, let it happen :)

dear sweet boyfriend, I love you :)

23102011

Just felt like blogging before I crawl into bed to wait for my dear to be done with his things.
Wells, life has become slightly less depressing. Or at least I try to be less depressed.
Almost 8 days to end of deployment.
Am feeling kind of bad that we are putting an end to it.
It really doesn't do good for the relationship with the centre in a way.
and I do feel very guilty about it.

Been having too little time for boyfriend.
Feel quite sad that I am spending such limited quality time with him.
But he has been really sweet and understanding about it.
And especially when I am super grumpy or grouchy,
he has been really tolerant of my moodswings and patient with me.
Am really very touched :)

Still feel really amazed how we actually end up together.
Still feeling amazed how I could have found such a great guy like him :)
At times, I wake up thinking about this and always end up exclaiming to myself,
"limjiaxin, I think God really loves you too much, that's why He gave you such an awesome guy to love you."
hee :)

Alrights. updates of random things next time.
feeling kind of tired le. jiayou limjiaxin.

thank God.

Just feel like blogging before I head off to bed.
I feel happier this week.
I know God has worked miracles in my life to bring about all these.
And I know God has definitely seen me through this.
Praise the Lord.

Thank God for a wonderful boyfriend as well.
My dear boyfriend has been providing me the best support and advices ever,
especially when I have let the super emotional part of me take over entirely.

I just feel so well-loved this week.
By my dear boyfriend, by my bosses.
And most importantly, by God.
Thank you, Lord Jesus :)

`we love, because He loved us first.

很庆幸我有你。

最近，心情都因着工作上的压力变得很紧绷。
心情总是很低落。
有时，在约会时还会时不时都提起工作。
埋怨了，还是埋怨。
诉苦了，再诉苦，

我真的觉得作为我的男朋友的他很可怜。
他得时时刻刻听我的诉苦。他得很有耐心地陪着我。
他得帮我承受我的压力，我的负担。
他还得想千万种方法哄我开心，为的是要我忘记一切的烦恼。
真的辛苦他了。

我实实在在地要感谢上帝让我遇见他。
在我迈入生命新的一章时，我和他重逢了。
是有点机缘巧合的。
从重逢，到触电。
又从触电的那一刻，到喜欢。
从喜欢到爱上。
这一切都发生得很微妙的自然。

我很庆幸我有他。
他话虽然不多，但他的细心已足以表达他想说的。
他总默默的陪着我，好让我知道我不需孤独地面对一切。
他会很温柔并无时无刻地关心着我，让我有被呵护，被在乎的感觉。

真的很庆幸有了他。
也因为有了他，我好幸福哦 :)

ps: I miss you, dear
      thank you for meeting up with me at such a last-minute notice.
      thank you for making the effort even though you were tired yourself.
      thank you for loving me for who I am. thank you for being the awesome bf you are, desmond :)

dating with my boy :)

/ignore the previous unhappy post.

Let me blog about happier things in my life.

Went dating with my boy yesterday.
Felt kind of bad making him wait as I had to end my tuition late for my kid's future's sake.
He was already starving but still had to wait patiently for me.
Thank God for a super understanding boyfriend :)

Had my favourite chocolate eggtart @ KFC again.
Yummielicious ~
Then we headed off to take the LONG- journey bus to Ikea.
Good thing that I wasn't alone, else my motion sickness problem would have felt much worse.

Just love ikea so much.
So many lovely and pretty concepts.
And so many things to buy.
hehs. :p

Went over to Courts to find my cordless phone.
Another awesome place to walk around!
and so many temptations.
But wells, they are still currently WANTS and not NEEDS yet.
So.. shall wait.
*grins*

Dinner @ Thai Express with my boy and the three younger boys.
Quite fun. and really must thank my boy for being so understanding not to kick up a fuss with me for bringing so many lightbulbs along.
The entire time spent with my boy, I just felt so happy and blissful deep down.
And I still think, my date is TOO SHORT and wished that the date didn't have to end.
but wells, hopefully there will be MORE and many MORE to come, I hope :)

我喜欢这种简单的幸福。
喜欢这种能够发自于内心的快乐。
我知道，也很清楚一切的幸福得来不易。
我会好好地珍惜真心爱我的他。
更要好好地守着这段感情。
因为幸福的我，只想紧紧牵着那真心爱我的他，并一路带着满满的幸福一直走下去。:)

why oh why.

WHY OH WHY.
I opened my work email and there it is.
The ultra bad news just sitting there and staring me in the face.
I just can't stop sighing ever since.

It is no fun. No good shit.
Lord, please send someone good along as SOON as possible.
Unless it's really Your will that I go back to teach full-time.
If not, Lord, I really love my job but I just can't handle the two workplaces-stresses and confusion.

I can totally imagine the horrible things I am going to hear tomorrow.
Like tomorrow was going to be a good day in the first place.
argh.
sigh.
WHY LIKE THAT!

I seriously need to go sing k to relieve stress already.
and yes, I have got to pray even harder from now.

01102011

Yay. A Brand New Month.
September was really very scary for me.
All the work has managed to wear me out quite fully.
Wished that I could say wake me up when September ends; but I don't know what lies ahead of me.
So all I can do is to pray that everything runs more smoothly now.

Yesterday was first time taking leave and best of all I get to match it with Boyfriend's.
but wells, yesterday was quite a day due to work.
Felt kind of bad that I was spending time on the phone and computer for work and half the rest of the time being stressed up.
But thank God for a super understanding boyfriend who just stands by me and supports me no matter what. He didn't even grumble abit.
Sigh. I am such a horrible gf! :(

today managed to sleep in due to tuition starting late.
So looking forward to meeting up with dear later :D

I am so used to typing "Regards, Jia xin" at the end of my email that I almost did so for this blog entry.
o.o"

Can't wait for BKK trip. like totally.
I need more holidays! like seriously! :(

:)

Skipped church today.
Shan't make it a habit. Will go back next week to serve.
:)

Slept in abit later. but due to my gastrics. Didnt really sleep very well nowadays.
Hates the stress-induced gastric problem.
Sigh. Seriously need to pray harder for the vacancy to be filled.

but wells. to update about today.
Met up with boyfriend to watch Crazy Stupid Love.
Really a sweet movie and I'm really glad that I get to watch with my dear.
Simple but sweet date :) just love spending time with him.

Met up with darling esther today. and had an awesome time just eating and roaming around.
Sad that we couldn't get our neoprints done today as so coincidentally, both machines are spoilt.
Sobs.
but nonetheless, it's awesome meeting up with the bestie.
Glad to see that she is doing well. Must so meet up for ktv SOON! :)

`just feeling sooooo in love :)

25092011

Had a great night out with my uni friends.
Busy eating xiaolongbaos.
Enjoying the 7th Heaven icecream from Haagen Dasz.
Almost partyworld-ing.
Ended up playing monopoly deal at McD clementi.
It was all fun and laughters,
though everyone wasn't spontaneous enough to play it my way.
sobs.

Work has been rather stressful for me.
Think affecting my body system.
Will be staying home tomorrow.
To rest and also to make my dad happy.

I just pray that the vacancy can be filled asap.
And in the meantime, I will be kept sane and sound.
And yes, I really do mean sane and sound.

HAPPY UPDATES :D

hellos! I am back! :)
with happy updates, I THINK.

Life has been pretty challenging and hectic as usual.
but thank God that I have my awesome and special someone to walk by my side through it all :)

And so updates:

1) Working @ two different workplaces now. Kind of disruptive to my learning and stressful as it gets.
but somehow, it feels like God's Will for me to be there to be able to be on the ground and see things for myself of how things run at operational level.
So despite all the endless stress and workload, I still thank God for putting me there in the right place and at the right time.
Nonetheless, I must pray harder for the vacancy to be filled!

2) Went on a MOONCAKE FESTIVAL JB TRIP with my UNI clique & boyfriend.
Was really glad that everyone was more or less comfortable with one another.
Mooncakes were awesome. And the dinner was yummie-licious!
Man, I am thinking about the salted egg butter crab now.
hmmm. Was kind of disappointed that I couldn't let them try loklok this time round.
But wells, ending it off with Baskin Robbins was satisfying as well :D

3) Met up with dear boyfriend every now and then.
But feels like it's always too short :(
It's REALLY too short. Sobs.
and the upcoming week, sigh.
I need to find ways to survive it.

4) Friday night went out with boyfriend and his group.
Beer market for chilling out.
Music was way too loud.
Food was so-so.
Enjoyed myself in a way.
but at the end of it, I was like telling myself "I am too old for late nights".
but then again, it's not that I am too old for it. It's more of my schedule that doesn't allow it.


5) Went town with dear boyfriend.
OH! We watched Glee 3D.
not a must watch, unless you're like a ultra fan of Glee.
Enjoyed walking around with bf. Dinner was good.
Tea @ tea loft was good, for I had awesome company :)
then HOME SWEET HOME. sigh.
it's like, time really flies.
Sometimes, I just wished that I can slow down time so that I can be on longer dates with my boyfriend :)

6) oh! we're going on a graduation trip.
with uni friends and I am really glad that boyfriend is agreeable to come along.
Excited much. it's going to be an awesome trip.
Shall be super crazy about taking photos so that all the awesome memories may be fully captured :)
CAN'T WAIT!! ^^

7) I can't wait for 30 Sept.
An off-day. Like Finally!
CAN'T WAIT :D finally will get to spend one FULL day with my dear :)

Wells, despite all the ups and downs in life, I am truly happy now.
Having been through so much, I am glad that I have found my special someone, Desmond.
and it's all the more because of having been through so much that,
I know how special, amazing and wonderful this relationship is and is going to be.
I thank God for putting him into my life. I am indeed more than blessed. :)


And so, comes Monday tomorrow.
jiayou everyone. jiayou, limjiaxin.
Have a blessed week ahead.
God bless you! ^^

one month :)

we're one month already. As of 08092011.
Wanted to blog this earlier but work has been quite hectic and been draining me out quite badly lately.

And so, here it is. Happy one month and one day to us.
It's been a happy, simple but awesome one month.
Feel very blessed with such a sweet and awesome boyfriend.
I am very blessed to have him.
Someone who is understanding, sweet, observant, sensitive and makes the effort to understand and know me.
I am blessed to have found this special someone who loves me sososo much.
I am glad that despite our busy work schedules and esp my ultra-packed life,
We always do our best to spend quality time together.
I just feel very well-loved and well-cherished by my awesome bf :)


I love you, dear boyfriend desmond :)

last day of August :)

today's the last day of August.
August has been an amazing month for me.
Kind of unbelievable how everything just manages to fall so nicely into place.

Was really happy about returning to HQ for work.
but endless work was waiting for me. and wells, it wasn't that fun.
But thank God, I managed to clear all my outstanding work.
the cute and super nice manager is leaving for another centre.
Was kind of sad about it but am glad that I came back in time to bade him farewell.

Left office quite late. Rushed to meet my dear boyfriend.
Had bak kut teh for dinner. then went to waterfront in hope of nice fireworks.
but guess our neighbour is saving moolahs.
Was happy still.
'Cause I get to spend quality time w bf, which is really hard to come by, given my schedule.
Well-spent time being well-loved. Definitely.

 ^ ^

finally a rest day! :)

It's finally a rest day! :)
I get to sleep in today which was something that I didn't have time for.
And so, Yay to that!

Met Bf after lunch to go for movie.
Final Destination 5 was urms, gross?
I think it's much much MUCH better than the previous one.
But I'm not sure whether I really enjoyed it or not.
Kind of having mixed feelings about it.

Randomly thought of having dinner @ Chompchomp.
Food wasn't fantastic. but i totally enjoyed bf's company.
Am so glad and happy that I get to spend some quality time with him :)

Can't wait for tomorrow to come :)

All the outdoors grad photoshoots turned out awesome.
Shall upload the photos when I have time to blog from my computer.
I am missing my boyfriend now. shall go and bug him before I turned in :)

finally coming to the end of friday.

Today is a sleepy friday.
Quite worn out, I guess.
This entire week has been too happening, I think.
Think this is the only week that I have been meeting boyfriend almost every other day.
*happy* even though time spent together is so limited and little, but I really enjoyed my dates :)

Convocation was awesome! :)
Full of mixed feelings.
Tiring, but full of joy, laughters, and awesome friends!

Went out with boyfriend and his group aft the two long convocation sessions.
Nice chilling out. but I particularly enjoyed our "supper" at waterfront.
With yummielicious, piping hot french fries and chicken wings.
and the most awesome-est thing was having him by my side :)

Watched Bad Teacher yesterday. Its not as bad as what the review says.
wells, we were lucky enough to be watching the movie afterall.
being the unpredictable me, I out of the blue felt like doing something old school.
Dragged poor boyfriend to take neoprints with me.
it's been how many donkey years since I last took.
SO OLD SCHOOL! :) but hee. quite enjoyed it with dear.

today is rest day for me. hopefully when I knock off later, I will still have the energy to run.
Work is kind of stressful and unconstructive for me today.
Must really get the new executive in soon.
*prays hard*

Am missing my sweet boyfriend right now ~
Can't wait to see him and my happy gang tml! :D
*grins*

:)

Last night's date was sweet.
Totally enjoyed myself :)
And oh! Horrible bosses is a must-watch, if you are up for laughs.
Can't wait for tomorrow to come. Can't wait to go on my date with boyfriend tomorrow ^^

Today's service and class were great! And managed to take some photos with the people.
Quite rushed, but it was pretty fun! :) whee~ but i am more looking forward to my HAPPY GANG shoot and my UNI-clique shoot. Gotta pray for awesome weather! :)

It's going to be an awesome week ahead.
but Lord Jesus Christ, I commit the week ahead into Your Hands.
I know there are going to be challenges ahead of me, but I will not fear, for Lord, You are always with me.
Thank You, Lord. :)

amazingly awesome week :)

this has been an amazingly awesome week for me.
Officially got attached to the sweetest boyfriend on 08.08.2011.
Went on simple but really enjoyable dates.

today went to church.
Service was good. God's Presence was awesome.
and I managed to talk to the people I wanted to share the good news with.
And I got the most sincere blessings from them.
and it meant alot to me.

to say that I am happy. it would be an understatement.
I am blessed. truly.

everything just fell so nicely into place. Lord, I pray that you continue to take control of my life.
I pray that you continue to guide me and help me stay close to You no matter what.
thank you Lord Jesus. for all the great works you have done in my life. :)

happy day with the happy gang :D

it's a happy day out with the happy gang! :D
love all three of them so much.
never fails to bring so much fun and laughters into my life.

was kind of worn out today. especially when I had so little sleep (my own fault also.).
work was pretty hectic today with endless meetings after meetings.
but somehow, meeting my happy gang never fails to make me stay awake de.

was really happy and relieved that my darling ah bon loves her birthday pressie.
chatting and catching up with the three of them with our own updates in our life.
okay. maybe today i was doing most of the updates.
hee. all of us were just so busy being lame and laughing.
can't wait for our next happy gang meetup :)

can't wait to meet the happy gang with my dear boyfriend ! :)
my life is awesome now. with someone special. with my happy gang. with my PRF gang. with my UNI clique. and especially with God in full control. what more can I ask for?
I am awesomely blessed. Thank You, Lord :)

08.08.2011 ;)

08.08.2011.
I am truly blessed and happy :)
原来开心可以这么简单，这么莫名的自然。
真的很开心，心中也很甜蜜，原来幸福是可以很简单的。：）

simple happiness.

:) today is a happy day.
Simple but happy :)

Didn't even realise that it is Chinese Valentine day.
Went JB shop, eat and watch movie :)
Somehow, I just feel contented, blissful and happy :)
不知怎么的，就是很简单地开心，打从心里开心。
整天都有被触电的感觉。
原来开心可以很简单。
:)

滿足。

Yesterday, meet up with some Uni friends.
It's an awesome gathering. With the most awesome company, I must say.
I realised that I've missed them so much.
I realised that I really enjoyed myself ysd.
It was really nice.
So much fun and laughter even though it's just a simple dinner.
Can't wait to complete our 4 impt and ultimately awesome agendas for the Year 2011.
Totally can't wait! :)

 现在的我过得很充实。
 我想我真的过得很开心。
 有着那么多爱我的好朋友，我真的要感谢主。
 这些日子，我的转变都是靠着上帝对我的爱，派这些人来帮助我。
 我并非坚强，我只是学习独立，学习活出我想要的生活。
 今日的我活得开心，也仍相信爱情。:)

:)

It's been soooooo long since I last blogged.
Time to blog about happy things.
I thank God for bringing friends who are always there for me.
I thank God for letting me find a job that I enjoy doing.
I thank God for all the great opportunities that are in my life.
And I truly thank God that I am truly happy now :)

whee~
I can't wait for TML! :)

I am at a loss.
Lord, please tell me what to do.

THANK YOU :)

thank you, girls :)
for your time and effort :)

thank you!!

我的天空今天有点灰。

:)

It's been awhile since I last blogged.
I just want to say THANK YOU to all of you who has been there for me;
Be it physically, spiritually or even simply to talk sense into me.
Thank YOU. (you know who you are :) )

Today was my first paper.
After the exam, my handphone lagged like crazy.
I saw so many messages of concern.
Just that very moment, I felt so well-loved.
Really well-loved.

Lord, I thank You for putting all these awesome people in my life.
Lord, I thank You for loving me.

:)

PRAISE THE LORD :)

I'll praise the Lord always.

Thank You Lord for everything You've and are doing for me.
I'll continue to commit my ways to You and trust also in You and as it is written,
Lord, You shall bring it to pass. Amen.
All Glory be unto my Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

first day of school :))

yayness! finally school has started again! :)
but wells, felt kind of lost in the school compound today.
The arrangement of the lecture rooms has changed, the food kiosks have been taken over by MEGABITES..
but most importantly, I felt kind of alone today.
I actually miss my going-to-school buddies :/
*sobs*
Guess I just have to adapt to being alone from now onwards :|

Not feeling too well today and so, I'm home early to rest.
*sigh*
it sucks to be both physically and emotionally unwell at the same time.
Trust is not built up overnight.
It requires constant reassurance and appropriate actions to build it up.
I want and need to trust again; but I simply can't do it on my own...